1. all belongs
2. doomsday love affair
3. down the drain
4. okay
5. there
6. going through
7. same
8. where to go
9. jacked
10. proof
11. cremating care
12. the house
13. the loudness war
14. at all
1. all belongs
(Featuring backing vocals from Mommaluv Skytower, George Serena, Elizabeth Davis, Jerry Griffin, Paul Collins, Cerwin Toxx, Lisa Lavoie, Lexie Smith, Jack Kinagree, Ren Enberg)
we all come to be heard and to listen and share the unseen universe of all our favorite songs
and even still there been a bit a dissing based how it’s done and some opinions say it’s wrong
well i’m not everyone’s cup of tea cuz my flavor is strong and completely bittersweet
i’ve said before it’s an acquired taste but i know that there’s folks out there who won’t let it go to waste
with this here nothing’s right and nothing’s wrong, it doesn’t matter if you wrote the song
or if you just hit play and sing along… it all belongs
if there’s a god for me it’s musicality the power of the tones that inspire you and me
or what i really meant to say is that inside is where you need to start from and you do not need a guide the only time is now may be a cliché but i chant it like a mantra every night and day
and don’t let that crap that other people say affect the way you see yourself at the end of the day
there was a time i figured i was through
and broke down crying drunk during a show will do that to you
but somehow i found the strength to carry on
and what shames me still saves me, it keeps me up ’til dawn
2. doomsday love affair
i know that it’s been hard for you lately, i see it in your eyes
i think we’re on the brink of something baby, it’s only just a matter of time
cuz we both know each others’ potential and we got it goin’ on
and the world can make you go mental, but if you work at it never lasts long
and it’s a doomsday love affair, chaos everywhere
i always know that you’re on my side
because you love me enough to say i shouldn’t act that way instead holding it all inside
and so far i think we’ve done pretty well, despite the spread of greed
‘cuz in truth we’ve always got each other and that’s all we really need
and hot times are what brought us together but true love is why we stay
and it was great when i partied with the boys but i much rather have it this way
and it’s a doomsday love affair, chaos everywhere
i always know that you’re on my side
because you love me enough to say i shouldn’t act that way instead holding it all inside
and now i just don’t give a damn i’m loving who i am which helps me to love you all the more
and so when i get pissed please don’t forget this – i’ll still remember what we came here for
3. down the drain
they never intended for us to survive, drain us of our love and our drive
born into a slavery that looks so free, born into the middle of world war 3
and hope is expensive and runs out quick, the folks with the medicine are the most sick
the cage that we are in is our own head, we live our whole time afraid to be dead
and momma can’t get by without those pills, and daddy can cheat as long he pays the bills
we’ll go to the parties and lie about joy, when it’s everyone else’s we wish to destroy
and an honest man just cannot find work unless he is connected and a total jerk
they want us hungry and in pain just to wash what we’ve worked for down the drain
divided so much on so many things, a flock of hurt birds fighting over wings
i wish that i could say we’ll make it through, but i can’t stand here and lie to you
controlled so much you just don’t know what to say, how to feel or where to go
you just keep believing it’s all for the best, knowing one day you’ll finally rest
and even though the power is in us, it’s ourselves that we don’t trust
it’s ourselves that we abuse, creating all the fodder for the evening news
we’ve got no choice, but we’re told to choose
they say that we’ll make it if we pay our dues, but we just lose
and now we’re forced to feel like it’s all a game so that we don’t flinch or refrain
from lying through our teeth just to get a meal, we’ll beg bitch borrow brag or steal
i think it’s pretty clear that we’ve been had, we’re so numb to that fact we don’t feel bad
so soon to grab all that we can and deny all that to our fellow man
4. okay
look at this day, just like every day, totally predictable i like it that way
i get in my car and go to my job, look really clean but i’m a spiritual slob
smile in the face of people i hate, expect nothing but sex when i’m out on a date
gimme the cash, gimmie the fame, anything that’s real is totally lame
i look in the mirror, i think i look hot, i am only worth all of the things i have got
i don’t really care what’s built up inside: all of that vanity, anger and pride
eating away at my self-respect, but it’s all worth it when i get that check
so who really cares about what is right, i’m on the scene having fun tonight
we’re not here to think, we’re not here to love, we’re just supposed to stick around and buy lots of stuff
do what we’re told and it will be okay
i’ve somehow lost all sense of will, but it all comes back when i pop that pill
it’s totally cool to be totally lost, bought and sold plus shipping costs
i’m well on my way to be the next big thing, one day you’ll see my face on some onion rings
so please step aside and let me through, cuz here’s my chance to beat you
and so that’s it, it’s what i know, i think war is good as long as i don’t go
the army the pimp, the soldier the whore, what do you think we pay those taxes for
i follow the rules, i work and obey, i take time to rest, i take time to play
and when i sleep, i sleep tight, cuz i haven’t run out of pills tonight
5. there
what i came for wasn’t there, just a loose leaf in the air
it wasn’t worth what you had said, it wasn’t like what i had read
but all of that’s just in my head
and it’s hard to be sure that you’re on your way when you can’t see out your door
and so i look right in where the song comes in and that’s when i know for sure
see my eyes and what they say, it doesn’t happen everyday
and just what am i supposed to do?
when all i know is to get through, to you it’s old to me it’s new
what you wanted wasn’t me, what i was just had to be
and even though we never lied, it was our truth that had to die
6. going through
i never met you but you’ve helped me well enough and i hope that you are happy when you’re gone
so take the good and bad in balance with the mad for you will need it for the times that are to come
it’s good to step away from all the games we play, whether in real time or on machines just for fun
so know it’s all for joy, whatever you employ overtime will define what you become
there is a reason that you feel the way you do and no one else feels exactly like you
but that’s what we’re all going through
and it’s a different place when i can’t see your face, yet i feel the music happening in us all
so here’s to freer hearts whose aims are in the arts of explaining what the hell is going on
and if you do come back, know that it’s a sure fact that i’ll be glad to hear of all you’ve seen and done
at least that’s worth to tell and i think you know that well and after all, either way make sure it’s fun
7. same
another drop into sea of us, a letting go once in the wave of trust
no matter what kind of day i’m having, i’m always up for the chance to dip in
and take my truth and my heart and my soul with me
and when it feels like i might be faking, i know it just another part of me waking up to what i am to be
all that perfection can leave my head alone, ‘cuz every moment is perfect on its own
and inside there’s a flame that burns me, moths in my stomach start their circling round my cage of words which hurt more than they ever helped, amazing to believe the way i felt about myself for you
everything’s now
everything’s here
everything’s gone every year
everything’s seen
everything’s heard
everything’s written down and rehearsed
everything’s small
everything’s big
everything’s caught
everything’s free
you are the same, you’re just like me
you have it too, you give it to me
where your eyes made you think, where your brain made you see, where your nose made you taste
where your heart let you be, where your mouth listened in, with your third eye to the skies
in a virtual place where your hands were your eyes
8. where to go
i’m no master of the way things are you see, no brave man that can rhyme with glee
it’s just that i’ve been there and know that reality and i want to help you out desperately
what’s kept us down so long for centuries is the systematic way they divide all things
and makes all so mad that we start armies and thank some sort of god for what that brings
i don’t know how we began or what we are but most have bought all the crap that they sold so far
the house, the boat, the jet, the car and forgot all about just who they are
and ate disgusting things that made for bigger hips, which comforted us during his ‘business trips’
cuz besides everything is now only half his and he can have that bitch because i’ve got the kids
i’m not a poet that will make it all beautiful
or maybe real enough to see and know where to go
i’m no survivor just another slave, the only difference the only way that i am brave
is that i choose to try and see it for what it is and not just go about my day unaware of how i live
cuz i figure that when the physical ends the way that the universe reprehends is
you have to look into the eye of every friend and ask, did it mend? did i mend?
or did you try like hell to get a hold of every last bit of it all in the cold
saying, i might not be happy when i’m old, but i’ve got gold, yeah i got gold….
yeah, so from now on i do not care about when i die, where it happens or even why
i just got to live real enough to dig the high, to radar detect every lie
cuz either way i am still a part of the sky, i don’t need to be a lightweight to learn to fly
i just need to turn away from that all seeing eye and say, ‘bye bye… bye bye.
9. jacked
all jacked up on doom with nowhere left to move
just wait and shop and eat and hope you die before it ends
is rooted in a fear yeah it can happen here anything is possible so why be so controlled
for the sake of being safe what happened to your faith
all that power that you lack is just what your god takes
so get it back now and never give in
eat your heart as if for once it’s not a sin to trust yourself and your dreams
coasting on the edge of finding better means
you say you saw the light but i don’t think it’s right
projections from the blue beam blanketing the holy night
and this is not charge for i know not who you are
but you show yourself as arches, rising suns, and eyes, and stars
and when i spend a buck it’s a cataclysmic fuck on every single one of us who has run out of luck
and this is out of love we have got to rise above the mediocre way that we have settled in to lies
that shape all the abuse, rampant and profuse like a 2 year old that’s wailing under store fluorescent lights he can see that it is wrong, this want does not belong, but 15 minutes of tv will get that feeling gone
10. proof
i went back home to see mom and dad for christmas
everything was different, it all felt the same
i can’t believe what those tornados did to the discount strip mall
with the clinic where i got tested to be safe
cuz i grew up in time where people scared me
they said them faggots are the ones who’re spreading aids
but i’ve got statistics that say otherwise and besides, it’s not good to blame
see all i know is that it’s fear that will get ya and love is the answer to all things
and you might have a list of reasons to say otherwise, but i’ve got proof when i sing
and the coffee shop that really was a haven for misfit youths who had so much to say
yeah i left town on a full tank of ego but that place in my heart is empty to this day
yeah and now i think it some kind of restaurant and the alley where we cried serves tens a day
and y’know i wonder if that is even still there the way things have been lately
and the last time i went back was for a funeral, a friend to all and a grandfather to me
and even though we didn’t spend a lot of time together we got a lot of history
and i’ll never forget after the service driving up A1A
there was a giant double-rainbow spread out on the ocean bright as day
11. cremating care
for what it’s worth we were obedient and good followed all the books, lived in stone and wood
and we worked hard for the right to be our own, called a place our home, and felt we weren’t alone
and over time there were some things we did not see, that happened gradually and shaped our destiny
and it’s to this that i try to be aware, it’s only fair if they’re cremating care
and we all fight over which lie to believe, every web is weaved, everyman deceived
until we burn out and don’t believe at all, deaf to the call of what our spirit saw
and in its’ place we put the dream shoved in our face, projected every place, every rat in the race
and carried on until we lost what we were, so damn sure that we were pure
so damn sure…
and now it’s gone, say so long, we thought that we were right but we were wrong
and revolutions start with music and with prayer, standing up on chairs and talking like you care
it goes beyond every stage and every screen, you don’t have to be mean just to cause a scene
you’ve got to be willing to walk outside your door, give back a little more, accept what it all is for
so just imagine how much care we have to store to even out the score with the sorcerers of war
and maybe i’m up here doin’ this for my health if nothing else i hope it helps
cuz all the faces that i see look the same, tense and vain and wrapped in pain
12. the house
i know that years of dreams have lived inside these walls
a lot of them are yours and some not at all
it’s only just a shell for all you really own
that place we call our heart is really our home
and i know you see it crumbling but it’s only to reveal
what we have to go through in order to heal
and if we lose the house it doesn’t mean you’re losing me
it’s just a fact we have to deal with to find where we are to be
and if it happens it does not mean that we failed
we hopped the american express and the train was soon derailed
i mean just look it’s happening all over around the country that we live in
and every other place with ground
and once it’s done you’ll see the path was always there
and all the dust has settled and you then can breathe the air
and i’ll still be standing there next you and know
we’ll always feel at home wherever we go
13. the loudness war
i want to see an end to the loudness war my ears are sore, i can’t take no more
recordings need green valleys and silver peaks, in order to speak, in order to speak
but those who market music want it blasting out overdrive the gain and make the singer shout
with less control over the volume control with digitized increments to blast away our soul… it’s getting old
and i want to see an end to the racial war my eyes are sore when i walk in the store
it’s all rooted in this conditioning of their pendulum swing but it’s really just photons and reflected light
it causes day and it causes night and what they make us do on tv isn’t right so we gotta fight – let’s go tonight – alright
and i want to see an end to the corporate war leaving us poor locking opportunities’ door
the spread of greed infected out way of life, but if you can buy the medicine you’re gonna be alright
the problem’s all these jobs without worthy aims just playing the game, just playing the game
so do your best to support all your indie-owned keep it at home
and i want to see an end to the sexes war it’s been going on for… well i don’t keep score
the parts you got don’t dictate what you’re born to do so let’s get that through and just be me and you
now put down that gun and take off that dress and just caress, just caress
and not waste all our money on augmenting breasts and chins with clefs give it a rest
i want to see an end to the terror war i’m just not sure what we’re doing it for
sacrificing freedom to defend the free – does that make sense to you? it don’t make sense to me
now what ever happened to the turning of a cheek dare i speak for the mild and meek
all i mean to say is that we should withdraw, that’s peace’s call, that’s freedom’s call for all
and i want to see an end to my internal war my heart is sore right to its’ core
so many desperate moments falling to the floor back against the door and the tears would pour
and so i call a cease fire on myself for the sake of my soul and the sake of my health
and realize i’m the owner of the things i felt and those cards were dealt those cards were dealt, those cards….
14. at all
when i think about how small i am in the grandness of it all
my thoughts drift away ’til i’m not thinking at all
and i just stay in that place until this world calls
because there the problems here aren’t big at all
and most times i’m really stuck in a mind that’s been abused
by tv shows and commercials and lots of bullshit news
but my mind still learned i won’t get burned if i just turn my head
and think about the vastness of the universe instead
and sometimes i can’t get all of the action out of my head
forget where i was going and regret some things i’ve said
but more often than not i won’t go where i am led
when i think about how small i am in the grandness of it all
my thoughts drift away ’til i’m not thinking at all
and i just stay in that place until this world calls
because there the problems here aren’t big at all
they aren’t big at all, they aren’t big at all….
©2010 Sean Kagalis Music/BMI
